Why do I want to fight?

To be honest i have been doing Gracie Jiu Jitsu for about a couple months now i have seen fights at my school and i do think to myself i can take these guys like nothing if i were to ever get attacked they only have one attack and that attack is the hook thats mostly about it and uhh slapboxing too well atleast thats how i see it sometimes i wish someone would just hit me first so that i can "DEFEND MYSELF" and prove to these guys that am not a guy worth messing with am only in 9th grade and a decent person at Jiu Jitsu however i do try to avoid fights to the best of my ability but when attacked first i will show no mercy